Exam's just around the corner and I ain't gonna talk about it here. I'm just too stressful with everything. It seems like everything comes in a package - a very stressful package! Or maybe it's just me? 

Good thing is...I managed to 'escape' for a while last night to watch the uber-exciting Paramore's concert live in KL! Such an awesome way of unwinding myself and too bad it lasted for only several hours. Nevertheless I sang my lung out! Jumped! Screamed! You name it. Regardless of being surrounded by the huge smelly and sweaty crowd I was having a blast!

The next morning I went to class without having the ability to utter a single word from my mouth. I lost my voice! People asked me about the concert but unfortunately I can only give them the sorry-I-lost-my-voice gesture. I was temporarily mute till lunch time. 

Ok. Back to the topic. I had a marvelous time at the concert. Yes I did but now I'm back to my somber-self, the melancholy side of me. People always see the fun and quirky sides of me and that's all because I try as much as possible not to let other people see me with miserable look. 

I guess sometimes I just can't control the situation. Just like the weather. It was nice and windy in the morning and suddenly became stormy later in the afternoon. I felt so terrible today and all I wanted to do was just sleep and hoped everything would vanish in just split second. 

Nope. It didn't happen that way. I pulled out the courage within me and went to the library alone with the hope of completing the remaining assignments. I sat at the usual place and started to do my thing then suddenly the feeling came by. The kind of feeling that I myself couldn't explain. Somehow, I was stuck there and stared at the computer screen without moving my limbs. Not doing anything. I was somehow lost. I lost my mood. 

I feel like crying but the tears just won't come out. People once told me, it's better to let the tears to roll down on the cheek rather than crying in the heart. I have to agree with that but with the situation I am at right now, I just can't do anything. I'm crying inside. 

I have a feeling that I'm going to be like this for the rest of the remaining weeks in this campus for this semester. However, the other side of me is hoping that everything will be just fine. 

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Alright people. I'm going to bed now and I know I will be having difficult time to sleep but I will fall asleep eventually...I really hope for a 'miracle' to happen tomorrow. Crossing my fingers.

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